Death..:(

As open as I might appear on paper via blog I am actually private about my personal life & things that really upset me emotionally.I have dealt withy a # of deaths just as everyone has all in varying forms.My grandparents died a few years ago with Cancer,they livede full lives until Cancer took them both out of here.My daddy had Leukemia-(blood cancer) & at the last part of his life they moved him from the hospital to Hospice.He died at peace with his family surrouding his bed in a semi delirious morephine induced state of mind.My daddy was a workaholic,but he enjoyed his life tho approaching it in a hardworking manner.Life started to decline fast for him in May.In spite of his discomfort his attitude was still good.Before Hospice was ever mentioned I had envisioned my daddy sitting in his recliner watching his hummingbirds out the window & spending time with his family but that didn't happen not here on earth anyway.The sky was semi dark & cloudy when my daddy died,he died @11am on May 23rd & he was holding my hand & suddenly he slowly released his grip & I knew then he was gone.The minute he let go the sun popped out I think that was to let us know he made it Home.When he let go of my hand I knew he was gone & my heart exploded with pain.I'm glad he didn't have to linger & suffer like some people do but it didn't lessen the agony of him leaving us.Daddy had alot of people come to his viewing at the funeral home,salesmen from other states even showed up & his funeral was wonderful.Words of love,hope & comfort were spoken by all.Tons of food was brought to us.But its sad for so many reasons.I can't pick up the phone & call him anymore.There won't be another holiday that he will share with his family.I keep telling myself that life is just a blink & before I kno0w we will all be together again.I know he is happy with all those who have gone on before & I am thrilled for his happiness! I miss u so much Daddy..Loving u forever & thinking of u always <3

We Will Never Forget You!!



My daddy with AJ & Caitlin



Wish List For Our House



Our House

 1.Laundry Room: Hardware to hang broom,mop & hedge clippers to make my floor space.
2.Kitchen: New deeper 2 sided sink,new countertops any other color besides white,new flooring something that resembles wood flooring,new knife block with knives.
3.Dining Room: new flooring instead of carpet ugghh who puts carpet where u eat anyway? New dining room suit preferrably something in the lighter cherry family with 6 chairs.
4. Family Room: new flooring instead of carpet then an oriental rug to go over it,new sofa preferrably a soft suede leather sectional,new lampshade for my mexican tile lamp & more speakers for our surround sound.
5.Our Bedroom: new mattress for our bed we are long overdue for one
6. Our Bathroom: different color on the walls preferrablty an ocean blue color,new lighting with dimmers,different color bathrugs & commode cover.
7.AJ's Bathroom: new lighting,new wall color,new shower curtain,bathrug,lid cover,toothbrush holder,tumbler,soap dispenser & pictures on the wall.
8.Outdoors:Front Yard: In our railroad tyes where our birdbath & gazing ball is add some mulch,put up a flagpole with American flag,lightpost,security camera mounted on the side of the house,car shelter with a utility building,white latex put all around bottom of deck,paved turn around with a basketball goal. Backyard Oasis with a gazibo,garden pond with goldfish swimming in it,waterfall & a fountain in the middle,steel canopy with firepit,grill & airondack chairs.stepping stones leading out to the pool,full wrap around deck around our pool,screen our back patio & put a porch all the way around our house.We would also like to put a doorway going out of AJ's bedroom towards the back of the house & build on a big room for a bigger playroom to put things in there like a big HDTV,video games,video game system,stereo,fooseball table,small sofa,daybed etc etc.also cut a doorway in the guest/AJ's/Caitlin's bedroom leading to the bathroom so it looks like there's a bathroom in that bedroom.

Missing My Daddy....:(

I lost my daddy in May..leukemia took him Home.It feels a part of my past is gone forever.His memory will always remain in my heart.He will soon be gone 4 months but it feels like a lifetime.I guess because we lived next door to him & I saw him everyday.Some days I move thru life unburdened by it & some days his loss cuts me to the core & the memories are strong.My heart breaks for anyone battling Cancer although his battle was short lived.Hearts also break for someone who loves someone with Cancer.It will touch your life,change your life & make u appreciate life in ways you never did before.Cancer took both my grandparents on my dad's side,my grandma on my moms side,several cousins,great aunts & uncles & my best friend.Pancreatic,Liver,Lung,Colon,Brain,Bladder,Bone,Breast & Leukemia have plagued my family & bff.I remember this past Valentines Day my daddy bought me a box of chocolates over the years my mom always did that kind of thing but this past Febuary 14th my daddy bought it & hand delivered it to me..I was so shocked but happy,in some ways I think my daddy knew it would be his last Valentines on this earth but at the time I didn't have a clue but I cherish that memory because it was the first & last box of chocolates he got for me..I still have the box it is amazing that I saved it.In Febuary when AJ was out for winter break my parents went on a trip & took him usually one of AJ's friends is in tow but this trip my daddy said he didnt wan t anyone coming along with them he said not this time..I think he knew it was the last trip they would take together & they have a wonderful time...they went to Silver Springs & rode the glass bottom boats,they went to the Fountain of Youth & to the Chatahoochie River.My daddy loved all of us..AJ was his buddy tho..my daddy enjoyed fishing & always talked about buying a boat wished he were here to ride in Caitlins boat,he enjoyed riding his golf cart all over his property,working in his garden,riding his John Deere tractor,working in his hayfield,camping in his camper,working with his GEO Thermas,he loved kettle corn,crablegs,shrimp,boiled peanuts,he was a good daddy,grandpa,son,brother,husband,father-in-law,cousin,uncle & friend to many.He loved Jesus & knew where he was going when he died,he was a honest hard worker.He treated people with respect & loved everybody.He was a perfectionist.He talked about retiring & spending time with his family & doing some traveling & fishing but he never got the chance to retire.His last few months of not working were spent in a hospital taking chemo,radiation & other IV meds.He kept every card & note anyone gave him especially his family.So all of u who still have your dads give them a hug,don't give them grief,appreciate them,let go of the past hurts..one day you will be grateful u did.He taught me to enjoy life & have a good attitude & he rocked it long before the days of Dr.Phil.I will too Daddy,the good,the bad,the ugly & the beautiful!! Loving you forever!!

Summer Gone Too Soon

I had made a list of things I wanted to do with my kids over the summer.We did alot of fun things-roasted marshmellows on the firepit,swam in our pool,grilled out,did karoke,went fishing,tubing,went to a waterpark & Dollywood.I have a 15 yr old daughter,Caitlin & an 11 yr old son,AJ & they are both in that magical period of youth when they are adventurous & innocent.I enjoy their imagination & curiousity more than words can express.Of all the things I wanted to do over the summer my one goal was to slow down because I knew what would happen summer would pass by so quickly & I was right.Soon we will be thinking about pumpkin patches,candy apples & haunted houses.Apple & pecan pies,football games & hot chocolate.And then all the family holidays will be here.It will be our first Halloween without my daddy plus that was his birthday he would be 75 this year.It will also be our first Thanksgiving & Christmas without him & our first with Caitlin.I feel like an emotional pendelum..It leaves me feeling drained so I want to focus on things that matter.Slowing down & savoring time spent with my sweet kids who are growing up right in front of me.We had an awesome summer,made new memories & I took tons of pictures of our adventures.I look so forward to school letting out for summer vacation so I can have tons downtime with my kids with no agenda.Here's to all the summers to come!

Summer 2013

We lost my daddy a day before the last day of school so AJ certainly wasn't there on the last day so we were all out of it for awhile.Even tho it would be our first summer without my daddy it would be our first summer with my daughter,Caitlin who I had placed for Adoption 15 yrs ago so we tried to pick up our broken hearts,go on & tried to make the best of it.The summer was hot,sticky & humid..the mosquitos were big enough to tap u on the shoulder & ask u to tie a vein off for them.But we did have fun making new memories with AJ & Caitlin & getting to know each other.Even tho Caitlin had missed out on AJ's life up until now they got over the shy stage & were having fun together & even fussing so it felt like they hadn't missed any time away from each other!

Pics From My Wonderful Life

In one of my prior posts for some odd reason I was unable to post pics to my blog so I am going to add a few pics from our busy summer.

Oh great it added the pics but it added a few of them quite a few times..lol oh well!!!

Caitlin in her toe ballet slippers..:)



Interesting Info About Me

My name is Sharron.I am 39 years old.My birthday is Febuary 1st.I have always lived in Georgia but my family & I are avid Florida Gator fans.My favorite color is pink.I love the beach,waterparks,rollarcoasters,haunted houses,shopping,reading,writing poetry,painting,scrapbooking,Pinterest,Instagram,Facebook,blogging,decorating,Zumba,bubble baths,scented candles,shoes including flip flops,purses,manis,spending time with my family & friends,movies,cooking,baking,juicing,cappucino,iced moo lattes,dolphins,lighthouses,palm trees,sleeping in,Bath & Body Works stuff,photography & swimming in our pool.My favorite authors are James Patterson,Nicholas Sparks & Karen Kingsbury.My fave places to shop are Ross,Bath & Body Works,Michael's,Hobby Lobby,Pier 1,Bed,Bath & Beyond,Gardenridge,Big Lots,Target,Kohl's,Steinmart & TJ Maxx.My fave places to eat are Cracker Barrel,Red Lobster,Olive Garden,Applebee's & IHOP.I am addicted to Dr Pepper!! I love zebra & giraffe print.I love crablegs!! My fave TV shows are Days Of Our Lives,Wife Swap,Secret Life,Dr House,Design On A Dime,Rachael Ray,Steve Harvey Show,The Dr's & Grey's Anatomy.I love Lifetime,GSN & HGTV.I'm a huge movie buff some of my faves are:The Notebook,Last House On The Left,Secret Life Of The Bees,Letters To God,October Baby,Courageous,The Vow,The Lucky One,The Call,Insidious,Mama & Woman In Black.My fave games are Family Feud,Trivial Pursuit,Uno & Chain Reaction.I like a variety of music but some of fave singers are Tim Mcgraw,Lady A,Carrie Underwood,Imagine Dragons,The Script,Mercy Me,Bruno Mars,Rascal Flatts,Phil Collins,John Mayer,Adele & Elliot Yamin.September 23rd my hubby & I will be married 13 years...we have been thru alot together.We have a son,AJ together who is 11 & I have a daughter,Caitlin who is 15 & he has 3 kids from a previous marriage-Robby-39,Holly-35 & Jessica-31.He also has 8 grandkids-Kora-15,Mylee-5,Raelee-4,Stevie-12,Adrien-2,Lil Kora-4 & Courtney-8 We live in a beautiful house with a pool.I love animals...we have 3 dogs-blk & white Boston Terrier,Cooper,Chiweenie-Sadie & Buddy.We have 2 orange cats,Goldie & Tiger who we call NewNew.We have an orange goldfish,Lucky & 2 rabbits-a blk & white rabbit,Thumper & a brown rabbit,Sparrow.We attend & are members of Bethany Baptist Church.I have many friends one of my best friends died in Sept.2011 from Pancreatic Cancer.Most of all my other friends live in different states-Jean lives in Kentucky,Janie lives in Tennesee,Caroline lives in Atlanta,Erika lives in Pennsylvania,Debbie lives in Clarkesville & Peggy lives in my neighborhood.I placed my daughter for Adoption 15 years ago & we reunited in April now she is very much apart of my life.I just lost my daddy in May from Leukemia.I miss him dearly but I know I will see him again.I have quite a few health problems-migraines,Stage 2 Chronic Kidney Disease,one kidney,Tachycardia,eczema,Ulcerative Colitis,Fibromyalgia,Asthma,COPD & Obstructive Sleep Apnea.I have an older sister,Connie & an older brother,Alan.I have been clean for 16 years..I was addicted to Heroin & Cystal Meth.I have been through alot in my life & have overcome many obstacles thats why I am going to enjoy the rest of my life being happy.I love my kids with all my heart & soul u might think how can any mother place her baby for adoption? At the time I wanted her to have the life that I couldn't offer her.She has lived a great life & has many luxeries.We live next door to my mom so we can keep an eye on mom.God knew what he was doing when He let my hubby,Eddie & I cross paths.He is such a good dad to AJ & his grown kids & a great poppa to his grands.He is a hard worker although he has alot of health issues as well.He has RA,psorarsis,diabetes & high blood pressure.He spoils me rotten-gives me the  best hot oil Chinese massages EVER,brings me breakfast in bed,helps out with the house cleaning & laundry plus does all the yardwork,takes AJ to school because I am soo not a morning person etc etc..I had my book I have been writing & working on ready to be published but now since my daddy passed away & I reunited with my daughter I need to add that! I hope my book will help somebody..my book title is "Broken Silence".It is about my life.

Our Summer

We had a busy summer.On June 1st we went to see Caitlins dance recital which was long but VERY good! Her grandma came from Florida so we got to meet her afterwards we had dinner @ IHOP.The next day Caitlin went home with us & spent two weeks.We went to a waterpark,went tubing,Funnoplis Fun Center where she & AJ rode an indoor virtual rollarcoaster,they played games & won tons of tokens,we went to Dollywood, & to my cousins farm where they held ducks,baby chicks etc etc.My daughter & I had manicures & pedicures done together.Everything happens for a reason.Being patient & allowing time to unfold to tell the story is usually where the lesson is.I thank God for blessing me with those who left footprints on my heart,for those who will later & those who are walking on it right now & changing my life.
      We painted our guest bedroom & put up a steel bunkbed which is where AJ sleeps now its still the guest bedroom & it is Caitlin's room when she visits so its a mix of a girly room/masculine room.Oh well I was going to post a few pics but my blog isn't allowing me to post pics for some odd reason..gotta love the Internet & all its quirkiness..LOL!

Gooodbyes & New Beginnings

Life has been extremely busy since the last time I blogged. The last of March I had outpatient surgery..had a cervical lymph node removed which thank God turned out to be a benign tumor! Last year my dad got really sick & went in the hospital with a very low hemoglobin as it turns out he had pre Leukemia which he started taking treatments. He was responding very well to the treatment until it just gradually got worse.I started searching for my daughter that I had placed 4 Adoption 15 yrs ago because I knew that if I waited until she was 18 my daddy would never get to meet her.As u know these days everyone has a Facebook I googled her parents names I didnmt have a last name but with the info that I had been given over the years I used that,my skills with the computer & Google & Facebook.I found her dad on FB & started there & found her on his FB.To make a long story short a friend of mine contacted her bff & gave her my FB URL & my daughter,Caitlin got in touch with me. We spoke for the 1st time on March 16 three days b4 her 15th birthday.My dad went into the hospital on April 10 & was diagnosed with full blown leukemia.His Dr treated it aggressively with chemo & radiation for 14 days straight.My daddy was so sick & pale. I'm getting ahead of myself I met my daughter for the first time on April 5th along with her parents.On April 12th my mom turned 70 & on April 13th Caitlin met my parents & the rest of the family.Everytime Caitlin visited us she went with us to see her poppa.

Caitlin spent Mothers Day weekend with us.She drew & painted a beautiful picture for me.My daddy died on May 23rd.Caitlin was at the viewing & the funeral.She made it just in time to meet her popa before he went Home!

My hero!



Everyday Life



Icicles on my SUV..



AJ's science project..



AJ w/ his g/f,Abi on the golf cart..



Eddie giving Cooper a ride..

 A few weeks ago we got some ice no snow just ice..it was more of a pain than anything else making porches slippery & roads dangerous.But it was pretty nonetheless.AJ had a starship solar system project for school..we had fun helping out with this..AJ had his girlfriend,Abi over to spend the day..they had a blast: Our dog,Cooper even had a ball on the golf cart..he loves to ride period.

My 39th Birthday 2013



My HD Nook..:)



My beautiful white roses..



Card from my hubby



Card from my son,AJ

 Friday Febuary 1st was my 39th birthday..it was a great day for me..I had over 80 birthday wishes on my Facebook from fam & friends.My hubby gave me a beautiful card & AJ gave me a funny card with a screaming monkey in it..lol Friday evening hubby took me to dinner @ Fatz Cafe then to the movies to see "MAMA" soo awesome!! Saturday we went to Gainesville to see sum of hubby's fam & saw snow..soo pretty..had lunch @ Applebee's..Sunday my fam & I went over to my parents house & my brother & his wife came to celebrate my birthday..mom fixed all my fave foods & a birthday cake-(pound cake) Everyone sang to me..I blew out my candles..we enjoyed cake then I opened my gifts..my son,AJ gave me money,my parents gave me stove eye covers & a card & my mom is taking out 4 Chinese this week & to buy me an outfit,my brother & his wife gave me a card,money & a photo DVD with music...& my hubby gave me a dozen white roses & a HD Nook...:))Check out my b'day pics...

Christmas



AJ making the Christmas tree..:)

 It's been forever since I last blogged..things have been really busy & hectic! AJ was out on Christmas break a lil over 3 weeks..we enjoyed sleep in days,all day PJ days,watching movies,playing the X Box 360...we did enjoy making our own Christmas trees using sugar cones,green icing & Skittles for the decorations..we all had a wonderful Christmas..AJ got video games for his X Box 360,DVD movies,clothes,a 22 deer rifle etc etc.Hope all u had a Merry Christmas & a happy new year..we had collards,peas & cornbread for New Years Day..