Death..:(

As open as I might appear on paper via blog I am actually private about my personal life & things that really upset me emotionally.I have dealt withy a # of deaths just as everyone has all in varying forms.My grandparents died a few years ago with Cancer,they livede full lives until Cancer took them both out of here.My daddy had Leukemia-(blood cancer) & at the last part of his life they moved him from the hospital to Hospice.He died at peace with his family surrouding his bed in a semi delirious morephine induced state of mind.My daddy was a workaholic,but he enjoyed his life tho approaching it in a hardworking manner.Life started to decline fast for him in May.In spite of his discomfort his attitude was still good.Before Hospice was ever mentioned I had envisioned my daddy sitting in his recliner watching his hummingbirds out the window & spending time with his family but that didn't happen not here on earth anyway.The sky was semi dark & cloudy when my daddy died,he died @11am on May 23rd & he was holding my hand & suddenly he slowly released his grip & I knew then he was gone.The minute he let go the sun popped out I think that was to let us know he made it Home.When he let go of my hand I knew he was gone & my heart exploded with pain.I'm glad he didn't have to linger & suffer like some people do but it didn't lessen the agony of him leaving us.Daddy had alot of people come to his viewing at the funeral home,salesmen from other states even showed up & his funeral was wonderful.Words of love,hope & comfort were spoken by all.Tons of food was brought to us.But its sad for so many reasons.I can't pick up the phone & call him anymore.There won't be another holiday that he will share with his family.I keep telling myself that life is just a blink & before I kno0w we will all be together again.I know he is happy with all those who have gone on before & I am thrilled for his happiness! I miss u so much Daddy..Loving u forever & thinking of u always <3